Once again...

Hey peeps! It's me again! Well... Remember my post "Looking for Something?" Well I'm in kind of the same situation. And I'm sure that you've heard rumors of me trying to kill myself... I've been depressed a WHOLE lot but I have NEVER been suicidal... I just wanted to get that out of the way... ANYWAY... Down to business...

Well... Last Thursday... I ran into some relationship issues... I got so confused and so frustrated with myself that I mentally broke down... And if you're wondering... I did NOT I repeat NOT try to kill myself... But instead I gave into the ONE addiction that I have trouble facing the most... I went into my room... Crying all the way... Grabbed up my pocket knife... And put three deep gashes in my arm...

Well... THAT week couldn't have ended worse for me... BUT when I went back outside to my friends that I had the issue with they freaked out. Because I had blood dripping down my arm. I ran back home... And JUST in time to meet my dad in the driveway... While the blood was pooling around my watch my dad and I discussed my issues...

While we were talking, one of my best friends came back to my house and asked if I was ok... He was the ONLY person that asked me if I was ok. That meant a LOT to me. He stayed with me from when he asked if I was ok, from me talking to my parents about it, from me cleaning up my arm, and all the way up to when we dropped him off at his house on the way to the hospital. All the way between those times, he made me laugh, cry, and get over my problems.

You know? I've been praying that God would send me a friend that was kind enough and cared enough for me that that person would NEVER let me fall too far... I think I met the real him that Thursday. God is always there to help us. He can get you out of ANY situation.

God sure did help... BUT I was talking about a real person! Without God and him, I would be even more depressed than when I was then. You know who you are! Thank you for everything YOU'VE done to help me get over what I'VE done... I love you and I will never forget you. I will never leave you like you never left me.

Thanks for readin,
-Bray