By the way, that video means a lot to me. Not only does it sound cool but it has a little connection with my life.

Seether - "Broken" feat. Amy Lee (Evanescence)

TOO MUCH DRAMA! AAA!

Wow... I listened to How to Save a Life by The Fray today and CRIED! WAAAY too much unnecessary drama between a friend and I... I don't know if this one will just blow over... We both have issues we need to work out... But neither of us wants to work on them... So we tear each other down... I hate that it's coming to this... But we are starting to loose our grip on ourselves, each other, and God. Today he told me to leave him alone... But I choose not to... Because we can BOTH get through this together... We can BOTH get through it together SAFELY, without too many hurt feelings... What we are doing to each other is hurting our friends too... And I HATE watching my friends get hurt because of something I did... I don't know what's going to happen next. I guess we'll just have to see...

Much Like Falling - Flyleaf

When I said good morning

I was lying

I was truly thinking of

How I might quit waking up

He pointed out how selfish

It would be to kill myself

So I keep waking up

It feels so much like falling

Dying while I wait to die

The fear of something or nothing

Lonely empty lie

I don't want to be here, lying

I don't want to be selfish anymore

I want so much to change

Learning your love everyday

There's still so much to know

You grip my wrists

I let go

It feels so much like falling

Separated from the fear

Aware of a destination far away from here

It feels so much like falling

Separated from the fear

Aware of a destination far away from here

Far away from here

Ok... Every heard a song when you think to yourself, "That sounds JUST like me!" Well... I have a LOT of those songs. And this is just one of them. This song is from Flyleaf's new album called Much Like Falling. Look it up. I love flyleaf and I suggest you checking 'em out! Thanks! haha!

ALL BETTER!

OK... About my last post... We got it all figured out. My friend never smoked anything or did any kind of drug... I was just REALLY worried about him and his safety...

Ok... Help Me Please!

Ok... I'm in a predicament. A LOT of my friends say that this one friend went to a school dance Stoned last night... RIGHT after I hung out with him! And if you know me then you would know that I would NEVER use ANY addictive drug, legal or otherwise.

I don't know who to believe... He keeps denying that he has EVER been High... And everyone else says that he was yesterday... I'm trying to be a good influence on him... But I am NOT helping by bugging him about this... I don't know if I should just leave him alone or bug him till he confesses if he even has anything to confess to... I want to trust him REALLY bad... But it's his word vs. every one's. And if you know HIM, he acts high ALL the time... So I really don't know what to do about this...

So I don't know if that was him being him and other people just mistaking him for what he wasn't, OR if he really was stoned... Someone please give me some advice...

Wow... School... Fun... Drama... Fun... People... Fun... Ya... ANYWAY! Ya... BOOOOOOORING! Haha! Random I know...

AGAIN!? AAA!

Hey everyone...Brayden here... I fightin' a fire today... Again... I'm in a LOT of emotional stress and distress... I realize that some of you people think that I am a goody two shoes pastors kid but I'm not... I won't get into details, but I will say, be careful who you share your feelings with, and be careful with who you trust with your feelings. I have been let down too many times for a 15 year old. For only being 15 I know that I have a LOT of things that I still need to learn, and experience. I will also say that I have experienced a LOT more than the average 15 year old pastor's child...

People tell me about their problems... I listen to them... But no one knows about MY problems except my close friends... And I HATE it when people tell me things like, "Brayden, your life is not that depressing!" or, "You don't know what depression is!" But what a LOT of people don't know about me is that I am Clinically depressed AND bipolar... There's why I'm so depressed all the time. Or so hyper active, or just plain weird. Well... Tell me about it... Tell me how depressed you are about your dog dying... Let ME tell YOU about MY problems... Good luck handling THAT!